Today, our borders closed at noon. I feel better today, however, I´m attentive and cautious. I try to keep my mind occupied with anything else than running news.
I follow the news, but I also turn off from time to time. I need to gather my thoughts, I need to let all this sink in. It feels surreal, but I know it is a reality that we have to adjust to.
Sitting on my couch behind the keyboard is a major task today. Every word is carefully written, and every sentence is slowly built. Everything moves fast, except time that seems locked in a loop between TV channels with ever-changing news.
This is tough to deal with. My inner peace is intact and I´m okay. To stay positive no matter what is my goal. I work hard with myself to keep my anxiety in check.
I told my loved ones that I had a bad evening. Everything felt better after I told them this and they said, take it easy, you are doing well with this. Well, I feel okay, but I´m not 100 % okay. Nobody is.
My sweet neighbor must go to work tonight, and she works with care for the elderly and weak. In my world, she is a true heroine. Already, she is tired, so we take the best possible care for her when she´s home again.
It is tough times, and we are only a few days into it. It is tiresome today, but I could only rest, sleep must wait until the night comes. I wrote a couple of paragraphs, but today I have to work hard with the words.
I hereby dispel any negative energy from my sacred space, as I will it, so mote it be.
Tomorrow, I will go to my creative den and prepare for the next time with playing, creative, and happy children. And try to write from early morning.
Simply sit down and go to work. A writer´s job is to write. A witch´s job is to enhance a positive outlook on life. And my job is to learn to cope with all this here and now.
I tell my self to shut up and do what it takes. And I do it several times of day. I use music to relax and to release my thoughts about what´s happening in these days and weeks.
I use breathing techniques, crystal healing, and the planning of the next Sabbath, Ostara/Spring Equinox, to calm myself down when necessary. And I am open about how it feels to live with anxiety in a stressful world.
Tonight, I will focus on the positives of this day, watch a movie or a series, and try to relax as much as possible. Tomorrow, I´m going to call my father, and I look forward to hear his voice.
Let tomorrow begin better than today seems to end. And so it is.
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