Today began with a personal reminder about the importance of letting go of what no longer serves me. So I´ll include a major release element in my next ritual, this time between friends.
Instant Karma happens when you expect it the least. And Karma knows how to deal with toxic people and energy vampires. So there is absolutely no need for my personal participation in any negativity whatsoever.
It is only in my later years that I have come to realize that it ain´t worth the fight to play along with some people´s little mind games. To gaslighting there is only one answer.
And that is to take yet a few deep breaths, pull oneself together, and get the hell up and fight by making the everyday as calm and comfortable as possible.
It does most certainly not mean that I forget anything. But I forgive people for not knowing better. I´m happy that it ain´t my eyes that will stare back at me when I look in the mirror.
I know from the bottom of my heart that my eyes are strong and direct. I know that I can be proud to look myself in the mirror. And I know that my eyes will show the worst possible toward somebody, which is contempt.
I dislike it so much that I save for those occasions where there is nothing left to say. When there is only a short and silent, yes so silent, expression in my eyes.
Today, I choose to forgive rather than being the involuntary part of a mind game that is a sad story, when looked upon with human eyes. I choose never to forget that trust broke a piece in my heart today.
Instant Karma hurts. I know because I have been here long enough to understand quite a few life lessons by now. Every choice has a consequence.
Anger doesn´t suit me well, neither do I enhance any beauty by feeling hurt and sad. Therefore, I choose to be happy and content with my life. I´m releasing my thoughts with a lit black candle.
I need to focus all my positive energy, my iron will, and love for a friend today. So, this is a rant about the positive aspects to the concept of Karma. It is about picking the right fight to invest time, energy, and life time in.
I hereby choose to let go of the past, any kind of negativity, and what no longer serves me. So Mote It Be.
It is one of those days where the thought stream makes it necessary to divert myself into thinking about what I appreciate in my life. And again music plays an important role when I ask Karma for help.
I live in the present moment, I´m more than good enough, and Self, anxiety will not get the last word here anymore. I´m done with being afraid of becoming afraid.
Karma is much more suited to deal with negativity and people who take others for granted, who betrays your trust, and who loses your respect. I have neither time, nor interest in anything but moving on from them.
It is with a calm and reassuring feeling that I write this. I won a major victory by letting go. Today, I was reminded that anger and frustration won´t solve anything at all.
I´m not forgetting, however. When I close my door, it is a permanent decision that is not up for any attempt of discussion. I do it with a small sigh and a silent, so silent tear in my eye.
And then I turn back to the positive part of being me this very moment. I have a wonderful family and good friends. I live a privileged life even on a small budget. And I even have a window to the world to rant at.
Nonetheless, today also hurts like hell. It is okay, Self. I´m allowed to feel all the way from darkness to light. And I choose to bet on the lighter parts of life rather than following any negative path.
Old school music thundering in my ears, everything I need close by, and a lit candle. Instant Karma may have a ominous reputation, But it is an extremely effective way of moving on ASAP.
Today, I will focus on finishing a drawing that has been neglected long enough now. I have a letter to write in hand. And I have a life to live. Therefore, I´m releasing negativity and distracting thoughts.
It helps being able to write about it. It instantly calms me down, it raises my spirit, and it renews my mental energy. I´m able to focus my thoughts again, although I absolutely hate to fight.
But I will do it, be it necessary. Being a Cancer Crone, beware of the silence after the words. When I´m silent, I´m fed up with something or somebody.
I may seem overwhelmed, but believe me, I´m not. I´m angry as hell, sad, and, most of all, indifferent. I don´t punish, I exclude. I simply stop noticing the one that broke my trust.
My life is way too short to include the risk of allowing toxic people and energy vampires to play any part in it. And it is a direct and immediate consequence that I exclude such people from my life.
If the day should show up that they understood why, it will be so too late that it is a reminder for life. So I don´t play mind games with anybody, no matter how low they choose to sink.
I won´t spoil my wonderful day by spending more time and energy with negativity. So when the candle burns down, I take a deep breath, get up and continue my day as usual.
And so it is.