Yesterday, I had a very personal and warming healing ritual with a family member and good friend. He had brought a candle with a sigil, and together we shared around an hour contemplating all this new that is going on.
I had chosen a great variety of healing crystals, e.g. rose quartz, moonstone, rhodochrosite, amethyst, blue lace agate, and malachite. There were also the sweet smelling essential oils and patchouli incense.
I read a couple of texts with a deeper meaning, and at last we wrote down what we wanted to let go of and lit our respective healing candles.
They are also lit now, as I´m writing this, and I will continue consecrating and charging healing candles, until all of this is over.
On my altars were black altar cloths, my athame, a porcelain bear that belonged to my grandfather on my mother´s side. skulls, dragons, my mini Tarot cards, and my homemade pentagram.
After the ritual, we went outside and sat around a bonfire, where we released our written words.
Since that it feels as if a new healing energy has diverted me away from worrying about my anxiety too much. A whole afternoon, evening and this brand new day without the fear of an unexpected anxiety attack showing up is a wonderful feeling of freedom.
For once during this, my anxiety is tamed. I enjoy the feeling of inner peace and relaxation of both body and mind.
It´s so liberating not to sit and shiver all the time. It frees my mind from the racing thoughts that have messed around with me for a couple of weeks.
I had quality time with my special rainbow family today. From the eyes and ears of children in the age of two, almost four, and seven years old. To grown ups with whom we can talk about everything and nothing from day to day without ever wanting to stop.
We pick up the conversation in the mornings, now with coffee in the garden as a daily must. And we pick it up from where we left it the night before.
I use some of the positive magickal energy from yesterday´s ritual. Now, I´m naturally tired, and I just know that I will sleep well tonight.
However, I still need to tell my self that I´m okay in all this, and my anxiety has to be conquered several times of day.
It is possible to learn to cope and to live well with anxiety as an involuntary visitor.
The price that I pay is that I cry more often, for short periods, but oh my, it hurts like hell when it hits me. I get touched to the bottom of my heart every time I learn about people being helpful and caring worldwide.
In Denmark, more than 100,000 people plan to sing from home to celebrate that our Majesty the Queen on April 16 2020 will be eighty years old. We will sing Happy Birthday wherever we are at 12.00 a.m. Danish time.
It helps me to stay standing on my own two feet in the midst of a terrible crisis to cry my heart out when I get emotionally affected of the news stream and the silent times in between.
It is as if all troubles are released with a couple of minutes of me time. It´s the price to pay for being strong in stressful times. And I´m happy to pay it, for I´m going through a major learning process these months.
Staying home for so long under such conditions makes sure that you get to know yourself, also into the farthest corners that otherwise would be left for the shadow work to deal with.
My face in the mirror in the bathroom is serious with a lot of smiles too. I believe that seeking the positive outlook in everything that life throws at me is the best point of view.
And our little basis actually works. All the hard work behind has been worth the trouble. We have much more than we thought we would be able to get.
And the best part of it is that most of it comes from using things more than once. Recycling and buying second-hand is also a fun way to spend money, not much, but enough to get by.
The little extra is the unity and fmily bond between us seven people, three dogs and three cats.
In the weekend, I will relax as much as possible, perhaps jump on the trampoline in the garden with the kids. But tonight, I will write to the beat of music that makes me happy as a child.
Yes, I´m actually dancing sitting down. Maybe I sound a bit crazy, but so what? It´s been one of the happiest days since all this began, and I´ll enjoy it until I´m too tired to anything but sleep peacefully.
May your evening and tomorrow to be blessed with inner peace, dear readers and followers.
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