Waiting for yet another press conference in an hour. Forever changed in a forever changed world.

We humans have to learn now. Counting casualties in an invisible war is not what we should have to worry about.

Mother Earth is breathing and very much alive, and thank you, dear Universe, for the beauty of Spring outside.

Oh, I wish, I dream. We can continue help help each other rather than fight for nothing but haughty pride.

A family member and close friend has a few days off after seven night shifts with weak elderly people.

We will take good care of her. She is special. One of a kind and dares to show it, too.

A heroine of the everyday. As are millions of people right now worldwide. Thank you for keeping the rest of us going.

I feel anxious today. But I´m okay. Life is put on slow motion, and being mentally tired is a daily phenomena during this pandemic.

What is also becoming a daily routine, is my inner dance with anxiety, where I have taken the lead for the time being.

It is a strong, demanding dance, and it is about adapting to its mood swings and twists, like sitting in the front of a roller coaster on the loose.

I´m learning to cope with the fact that I´m easily scared. But I´ll fight back every inch of the way.

The art is to change from being anxious to being happy and content. My family and my friends, almost like a clan of different people, causes that.

When we are together, we are strong. When we are apart, we are even stronger.

And we share our lives up close and yes, we get to know each other. For better and for worse.

Being able to tolerate diversity is a necessary skill here at my little spot. But then again, it is possible to learn an old dog new tricks.

If we only dare to try to do things better than before all this. If we only would learn to trust the value of treating each other with respect and kindness.

And if we only this time would learn from past mistakes.

Forever changed is a deep and strong feeling. Waiting for yet another press conference is exhausting today.

So I will pour myself a new cup of coffee, keep on writing until I see our Prime Minister on TV.