… I turn to studying some of the many goddesses worldwide who all have in common that their story took place in difficult, scary, and harsh eras of time.
— I turn to old school witchcraft, honoring both my Nordic roots and my spiritual ancestors whoever they may be. For I would wish for them to see the world of today and speak their opinion.
… And I turn to writing, playing loud and heavy rock´n roll music, and other creative pursuits to redirect my anxiety and inner abysses of thought chains with the sole intent to remain sane in all this.
We live in times of serious trouble. We really need to learn and to adapt this time. We cannot keep on doing stupid, dangerous, or totally unnecessary things just because we feel we have a right to do so.
My anxiety thrive, it believes. But I thrive too, and I´m stronger, Self, than this little devil on my shoulder and in my mind. I´ve fought my way through life, I have earned my chosen path as a Crone.
Absolutely nothing remains standing in my way, if I in any way can do something about it. I have learned the hard way only to pick the fight worth the effort.
I´m not afraid of adversity and disagreement. But I try to avoid it by maintaining my positive outlook on life in general, by changing what I can´t accept, and by accepting what I can´t change.
I have not chosen an easy path. And the goddesses I plan to work closer with (and then the gods as well) are not to be taken for granted however important the intention behind might be.
But it is a challenge I enjoy to deal with. I have a new goddess and god altar in the cauldron for daily mini-rituals and later on also the big rituals with the extra good stuff.
In times of serious trouble, I´m pretty experienced in remaining calm and take the necessary precautions. Like making my own face masks, as this is coming closer each day, and there are none to buy due to people hoarding.
We are home as much as possible, and we are extremely careful in public. We only have to get out for longer time when it is time to pay bills and buy the basic necessities for a month at a time.
Then we only have to shop twice a week for the supplies. And we save money at the same time. It doesn´t trick my anxiety, but some people do. Those who won´t listen, who stir up trouble, who do stupid things.
This weekend I will try to create my own goddess symbol. A simple drawing transferred with cardboard to clay that air dry. Then a few drops of paint and a sealer.
To be in my little wooden box on my new altar for my pantheon of goddesses and gods. I consider them to be universal concepts about life, death, and rebirth that I can use to reflect on my own life.
To find that part of yourself where all the good and strong inner energy that defines you outwardly, if you are in balance in general, resides. Or the critical voice that reminds you that there are shadows to handle.
I will use it in my meditation rituals where I typically do shadow work. I will test my own limitations and barriers. And I will work with deities in my witchcraft practice.
Until now, I have not researched in depth. But in this pandemic era I need something different than usual to keep my focus on the intentions behind the ritual work.
I have noticed a remarkable inner calmness when studying deities. It feels as if they are trying to reach out, to make me listen and think. They have many messages, many symbols, many correspondences.
They deserve my time because so much of my understanding of the world I was born into 51 years ago come from stories from long ago. And how sad it feels to be proven right so often when it concerns human behavior.
I therefore needed something to occupy my mind with. And this week has been a pleasant and mentally enriching encounter with ancient points of view.
My Lammas ritual is postponed until tomorrow or next weekend, depending on if I feel ready for it. The big solitary ritual Monday was strong, beautiful, and demanding.
My writing on my novel is still concentrated about writing down the snippets found in random conversations, an inspirational quote in a movie, or more rare coming from my untamed Muse.
And my daily life is centered around my father´s visit from next Monday to Friday. So I need a free sacred space to be just me, the Maiden behind the Mother behind the Crone.
My primary goddess at the moment is Greek Hekate. The goddess of the Underworld, the Queen of Witches, and the Dark Mother. I find her path enlightening, illuminating, and enchanting.
Without darkness, no light. And vice versa. The challenges in life is in reality a matter of choices. Change is inevitable, no matter how hard we humans try to forget that.
In times of serious trouble, I turn to do what I love the most. I turn to anything but negative and disturbing news. And I turn to my loved ones, my family, my friends.
So, dear readers and followers, please take good care of yourself and others. I send you my most sincere positive energy, lots of thoughts and hugs, and tonight I will light a healing candle for the world.
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