Today, I went out for the first time in months. It was less anxiety-provoking than I thought to begin with. I got a haircut at a fair price, bought something beautiful for my creative needs later tonight, and enjoyed a great experience with the girls, my best friends besides my husband.
Today, the weather is deceitful, shifting erratically between a ray of luring sunshine followed by aggressive outbursts of icy cold rain showers. We were prepared and kept our umbrellas close. Now, I’m tired, happy, and ready to enjoy the upcoming weekend.
My husband watches the news, with two of the philosophical cats sleeping peacefully in a box and on a pillow on a hassock. The little wise, old dog lies in his soft basket at my feet, and I have a cop of freshly brewed coffee on the desk.
I need to clear and clean my desk because the whole week I have worked with the recovery of my mouth after my operation. I am almost off my pain killers, the stitches begin to let go, and I can eat more regular food again.
My mind is refreshed, my heart is relieved, and my soul is free as a bird after the decision to cut the bond between us and someone who proved to be anything but a friend. When people lie to me, treat me with disrespect, and take me for granted, I close my door permanently and here and now.
And when such a decision is made, it is not possible to change it back. My self-respect will never be for sale, and nobody messes with my family and friends. It is therefore with great relief that I speak of freedom today.
Yes, we may have lost somebody in our life. But we cannot lose a friend who never proved to be one when things got tough. So, in reality, we have done ourselves a significant favor by saying no to being used, lied to, and treated with gross disrespect.
Besides, life is busy happening right here, right now. We simply don’t have the time or the energy to deal with toxic people whose only care is themselves. And the last couple of weeks have shown that there are plenty of things to do better without them in our life.
A trip to the local market with the girls, mature women like myself, is the direct opposite of selfish people. We genuinely care for each other and give the necessary space, time, and help without hesitating.
Because we are too old for bullshit, pardon my French. Because we are too young to accept the status quo. And because we are too grown up to deal with childish behavior. The truth may be sensitive, but it is always best to speak the truth, for then nobody needs to remember their lies.
It was both overwhelming and fun to be out again. But home is my best retreat, so everything is just fine here, thank you. And after a couple of weeks of recovery, I’m more than ready to pick up my writing adventure from Monday next week.
This weekend, however, is dedicated to creative pursuits, relaxation, and meditation in my witch’s den. I want to create a small ritual without preparation. We will just go to my beautiful den, lit some candles and some incense, and use whatever comes into mind.
No photos, no written plan, no Book of Shadows. My husband and I and a few items create that unique atmosphere that brings happiness, inner peace, good mental health, and kindness. Tomorrow is Saturday, a perfect day to cleanse the mind and align mind, body, and soul to the rhythms of Nature.
I need witchcraft back into my life, and I think that a daily mini-ritual would do me much good. So from Monday, I will spend at least half an hour there every afternoon with a good book. As a writer, I know that reading is half of the work of writing.
During my voluntary recovery period, I have had plenty of time to really think through my novels. And I now have a superb female villain whose icy cold attitude underlines her actions in a way that creates a chill down my spine.
Then I simply know that I have something good to write about that others also will find worth reading. In about a year, I will call for beta readers, but if anyone out there wants to jump into the process before that, please feel free to contact me.
Concerning publishing, I’m contemplating the audiobook format. That way, people with reading disabilities will also be able to enjoy my work. But for now, I’m happy and content with the writing process itself.
I will finish my work with the many notes that I have after more than eighteen months of preparation during the weekend. I need to print and read them thoroughly. And I want to arrange them neatly so that they are easy to work with later on.
Today, however, I’m still recovering. So, right after this blog post, I will go offline and simply enjoy life on the couch next to my beloved husband and our sweet cats and lovely little dog. No social media, only the TV’s sound as a background to creativity and deep inner peace.
A trip to the local market with the girls is a good thing. We have many trips yet to discover together. But now it is time for the atmosphere of the weekend to settle in. Another week conquered, another challenge taken and done with. And another day lived happily ever after.
May your weekend be blissful, trouble-free, and happy, dear readers and followers. May the world shut up for just a couple of days so that we all can breathe and feel free. And may the Universe and Mother Earth grant happiness, inner peace, good health, and kindness to every soul on this blue planet.
As we will it, so mote it be.
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